LIVE FOR LOVE?!?

Why is it every time you try to ignore anything having to do with love you see it everywhere? From couples holding hands, to those damn tree rats, a.k.a. squirrels, chasing each other.

Love sucks. It always comes at the wrong time, in the wrong situation, and with the person you never in human existence thought it would be. Why? Love is like a monthly cycle. It comes when it wants and at all the wrong times!! But to some individuals you cycle and love can be beautiful when it comes, I guess. Whatever. Sorry that I can not share in that beauty.

I should not say that love sucks. I will rephrase it. Love stinks and it does not work. It does not work the way it should. Love does not make sense. How can something that does not make sense work. I can't take it.

The worse part about it is to know that the other person knows and they do nothing. I guess if they ignore and do not recognize it it will go away. Yeah, I really wish that it were that easy. So what you are faced with is trying to rid yourself of ridiculous feelings that will never be fulfilled. It is much like being on a road that is interrupted and the 50 million foot wide gorge is separating you for the other side, and you know what is over there, but you have to turn around and go the other way because no one will ever build a bridge to connect the two roads. So, you have now made all that progress for nothing. Or can you even call it progress? It is more like being naive. You knew it would never work out the way you wanted it to. But, like a non intelligent person you let yourself fall into it anyways. I guess that why they have such things as "life lessons." But, why is it that so many people are going through the exact same thing.

I am pretty sure everyone had a choice between to things and they choose something that had a 50/50 chance of bringing happiness, and it did not. But I guess one should find happiness in knowing that you at least gave it a shot. It is just that I do not know how you can find happiness in that when you feel as though you have lost more than you have gained. But, you just have to keep rolling with the punches. Even when you have to drag you feet, you head and you heart on the ground behind you.

Just Writing What I Feel,
Sophia