SCARED

I don't know what it is but something about stepping into the real world has me scared. I already contracted senioritis, and a bad case of it I might add. I don't want to do anything that would make progress towards me getting out of college. Why. I have waited for this time for so long and now that it is here I don't want to go. Don't try to understand me because I don't understand myself.

What if I get out into the real world and I am not as good as I am in college. What if I fail. I don't want to fail. Yes, yes, yes, I know that there are people out that who are better, faster, and just plain genius. But, I don't want to fail. I guess I'm just being ridiculous. But, it's just that the whole thing about having to work your way up to the top. But, what I am failing to remember is how much I love working my way up to the top, and proving people who had no idea that I can do the things that I can do wrong. Not just because I want to prove them wrong but because they said I could not do it or have it.

I don't know what I am talking about. I am just writing again. I will be okay. I know I will.

Being ok,
Sophia