MOVES

I'm making big moves!!! I'm so excited. I feel so revitalized. After all the things that I have been through I'm finally going to do something that actually benefits me and makes me happy.

It started yesterday. Someone did something really nice for me that was completely unexpected. I felt so, I don't know,loved? hahah. It my sound stupid to you, but when you go your entire life and someone finally goes out of their way for you it feels good. I don't know. I don't think that they really know how much I appreciated what they did!!!!

But, all that encouraged me to make positive moves in my life. And that begins with the big move. To move outside of everything that is familiar to me and place myself outside of my comfort zone. 1 month and counting!!!!

Count on sister
Sophia

OFF IN LA LA LAND

Late. That is how my day started off. I despise being late. It's the worst thing ever to me. I woke up this morning and thought to myself "It's a little bit bright to be 7 in the morning!" Needless to say it wasn't. It was 8am. The time I needed to be at work.

In my defense I can honestly say that I have not been getting sleep these last few days. I've been up at 6:45am and have going to sleep at like 1:30am-2am. So It all makes perfect sense. Not to say that it is fact excusable, because late is late regardless of what else is going on.

Also in my defense I can say that in the African culture there is no concept of time. In their culture they believe the most important thing you are doing is what you are doing now. They don't deal with future type things like how long is it going to take me to finish this project and what time do I need to start another. They deal with now. Accomplishing what they started now, and when they have finished what they're doing now then they'll start on the next important task. It is in fact kind of ironic because the saying Colored Peoples Time (C.P.T.) has a negative connotation to it. But when you think about it is actually very positive. How can you be late to something if in your culture you don't have a concept of time; your life is not on a schedule. What can be more important than what you are doing now? You cannot do what is in the future because it is not here yet. Deal with "now", and when you're finished with that then start on "later".

Ok it's early and I'm still tired...

Sophia

HEY

MAN

I'm trying to see if my writings will post if I send them by e-mail. SO... this here, this here is the test. heheheheh. Hope it works. If so then you
are all in trouble.


Sophia

IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME COMING....

It occurred to me, or I should say it was brought to my attention that I have not written on my page in a while. My badd.. I really didn't realize that anyone was reading my page. Sorry, my badd!!!

I'm excited because graduation is in like a four days. I can't believe. What am I suppose to do after that? I've been a professional student my entire life. I don't know where to go from here. I want to go far away, where no one knows me. I'm gonna just get up and go one day and not say a word. I'm gonna be a gypsy. Hhahahahahah. Roughin it like a soldier... heheheheh

But no seriously, I need to get out of the environment before I become a product of it. What's my environment now? Nothing, absolutely nothing. No ones making moves, doing BIG thangs.. at least not beneficial ones. But then again that depends on how you define beneficial.

Have you ever felt like your past will not stay in the past. It keeps returning no matter how much you try to let it go. How do you let go? I don't know I've tried and obviously it's not working.

Well that's all for now folks?

P.S. I'm now open to taking comments on my page. Not critiques of what you thought i should have written, but more of what you're thinking!!!

O yeah, my lil bro is graduating from high school. Isn't that quite. I know my dad is looking down on us smiling!!! ;)

Outro,
Sophia